Hello, New Year's Eve.

Up after a relaxing nap at the Chablis Inn. A gloriously sunny day today after such a glum one yesterday - life is so miserable when you're sick. In my downtime, checked some emails, a few job postings.

Woke up this morning a smidge better, went with my travel buddies to grab breakfast at Sweetie Pie's. Seems that everything is quaint and cozy in Napa. Had a lemon scone and it was bomb. Some oatmeal - a bit too sweet, and not quite hot enough. Had such a huge dinner last night at Celadon - delicious, but we all had a ton of food. Highlight was the homemade warm apple crisp with ice cream.

Tonight we are headed to Ad Hoc for dinner, looks like a prix fixe deal. May hit a concert for tonight's New Year's festivities, includes champagne + hors d'oeuvres.

Hate feeling under the weather. Can't wait to feel like a normal human being again. Gives me a flashback to Barcelona when I had food poisoning and said the same thing.

Feeling a tiny bit guilty that I'm not with my family at the moment. Didn't expect that.

Got a job offer for a gig working abroad in Korea, need to give it some consideration. Hmm.

Total job applications: 2.

Blogging from SFO.

SFO = Airport love.

The way of the future. Airports done right. Clean, efficient, resourceful, and, best of all, has decent dining options!!!! Waiting for my friend to pick me up from SFO - don't mind waiting, since there is free wifi, good food, and clean areas to work, charge electronics, and lounge.

Today's the day we go to Napa Valley wooohhhh!

Unfortunately am getting sick. Am downing everything I've got - green tea, EmergenC, Advil Congestion pills, and now: GT's Enlightened Organic Raw Kombucha. It is NOT a fun drink to wash down, but it looks so unbelievably good for you and packed with the stuff that fights all things bad for your immune system. Hopefully it works. The worse it tastes, the more legit the stuff is, right?

My Dad dropped off my friend and myself to our respective places of transport - my Russian friend at 30th Street Station at 5:00 a.m., where she boarded a bus to New York City. And me - PHL airport, where my 8:15 a.m. flight was delayed to 9:26 a.m.

About yesterday: received 1 job rejection email. Sent 1 application out. Went to 1 job interview for the blah job. Not sure if it's for me. Seems a bit fishy/non-kosher/slightly questionable. They called me the same day to schedule a follow-up interview, which is apparently an all-day sort of job shadowing, which I believe there is no compensation involved. Apparently that is the 2nd of a 3 part hiring and interview series.

Today: Sent 1 job application via mediabistro. Intriguing bit of description, albeit.

So, for yesterday and today, here are the totals:

Total job applications: 1.

Total job rejections: 1.

Interviews: 1.

Shopping on the Day After Christmas With The Russian.

Been busy showing my friend from LA around the East coast - DC and Philly. She's my friend from LA and been visiting me since last week. Hahh just realized the title of my post reeks a bit Sex and the City.

Many realizations in DC - super stressed with living in my parents' house, the elongated stay coupled with the temporary loss of adult independence (HUGE STRESSOR), and the realization of denial of all the aforementioned. Sex drive is nonexistent, probably because, at the heart of the stress, is some depression blended in, considering the circumstances. AND with not potential attractive suitors around - it's been career focus all day, every day.

Been a blur of a few days. Def felt the moments where we were getting on each other's nerves. Funny how, when friends visit sometimes, or you're hosting, you notice those things that annoy you about your friends - their flaws, the many differences between you two, et cetera. Kinda like when you're traveling with a buddy that you haven't traveled with before - can get frustrating.

Went to the gym this morning, was frankly a bit nice to get a couple of hours to myself. The Russian Friend slept in and I got back from my workout. Cooked breakfast (bomb egg white omelet with spinach + goat cheese, fyi), cleaned my room a bit, and she didn't roll out of bed until about 11:15 a.m. or so. Chatted with my mom real quick and then we went to the mall.

King of Prussia was packed, managed to find a couple of lucky parking spots. The Russian got tired pretty early so we got out of there after a few hours. I bought a leather jacket. The Russian bought a white furry-looking number. Yep - different styles, different tastes, I know.

Walked into Bare Escentuals looking for a new foundation - been looking a bit off color, what with all the winter pallor. Ended up spending a honey on make-up: foundation, blemish cover, blush, and one brush ($28 a pop - that was painful! Must never lose brush. Must also never open up bare mineral products in windy weather. Not even a hint of a breeze, or else you'll be throwing money away). Girl that worked there did a color match for me and tested the make-up on my face, the whole shebang - that is one nice product. So subtle and natural-looking - I've been slathering on glop this whole time. Especially helps when you're a fully grown adult and covering up stress acne - who knew that the right make-up could work such wonders?

Have applied to absolutely no jobs in the past few days. It's Christmas!

Actually, remembered how the hiring during the stretch between Christmas and New Year's is pretty much dead in the water. Will dial it back a bit for the next week or so and focus on writing. Need to finish feature script. Relax. Have a drink.

Tomorrow's agenda (in no particular order): packing for napa, chill with the Russian friend, and job interview for blah job in the area. Eh, let's just see what it's about.

On Vacation, Bitches!

Picked up my friend from a seriously delayed flight at the PHL airport at 2 a.m. Her baggage never showed, so she had to file a claim and we got home around 3:30 a.m. Left for the train around 7:00 a.m. So fuckin' tired. Connecting time at 30th street station for an hour and a half. Hopped on the megabus to DC. Megabus ride kinda blowed this time around. Annoying loud ass bitch on her cell phone sat behind me. Wish I had said something, but mainly knocked myself out on and off for a couple of hours of sleep.

Got to DC and then took friend out to the White House, walked through the Foggy Bottom campus, and then hit the Kennedy Center for a free tour. Ended up heading back to my other friend's place, ordered pizza and had a fun night in. Went for a late run to Vons for some provisions. Fired up the garlic bread, andouille sausage, and pie that we bought. Was yummalicious. Forgot how good those foods could be. So much of life is discipline most of the time - eating healthy, working out, moderation. Nice to have those days of total abandon to balance it out.

Friday - today. Woke up late and felt like I had the best night of sleep that I had in a long time - was so fuckin tired last night. Cannot last on three hours of sleep, goes to show.

Went to the Capitol, walked around the National Mall, ventured into the botanical gardens, and saw the Washington Monument. Was windy and got cold so hightailed it back to my friend's place. Checked some emails. Did some marketing research, checked the job boards. Watched DVD with friend from out-of-town.

Emotionally and mentally felt good to just GET THE HELL OUT OF THE HOUSE and AWAY FROM MY PARENTS.

Didn't realize how much I desperately missed, no, desperately NEEDED, my days of independence again.

Got a ton of sunlight today walking around the city.

That's right, world. Take that, economy. I'm taking a vacation while unemployed. Deal with it, bitches!

Total job applications: 1.

Total vacation days: 2 (yesterday and today).

Wednesday, 12/21/11.

Got up at 1:00 p.m. Had a couple messages. Woke up with a tinge of a hint of a tickle in my throat. Or - something. A - dryness of sorts. Had a cup of hot green tea and later on some EmergenC.

Made sunny side-up eggs over a grilled chicken salad with goat cheese, sundried tomatoes, and toasted almonds.

Cleaned the guest bedroom and bathroom. Organized my room, folded laundry, did the dishes. Wrapped the Christmas gifts, organized my bathroom. Shaved my legs. Put away summer clothes in the basement.

Checked emails. Applied for 5 jobs. Slight headache beginning to form.

Set up one interview for next week for some blah account exec job. Set up another interview/meeting for a commercial real estate gig in LA when I'm there.

Got a handful of emails for boring ass jobs - should've known - I uploaded a new resume on careerbuilder last night. Gotta wipe the profile clean if I don't want to get those anymore.

Seriously gotta get out of this house, this funk. Depressing. Need to at least get a part-time gig. Made a small cup of instant coffee - was feeling tired. Debating whether or not to go to the gym.

Total job applications: 5.

Total job rejections: 1.

Total interviews: 2.

Tuesday's order.

Received 2 job rejection emails today.

Got up around 1:30 p.m. Went to the mall for mom's christmas party gift exchange gifts. Bought two and was done.

Bought some chocolates. Damn that is something a boyfriend is DEF supposed to be buying for me. Such injustice. First time I've had a piece of candy in..ever? Ages? Can't remember.

Spent tortuous time in car in the rain in traffic with parents for an incredibly annoying evening. 5 hours of driving and waiting and going to doctor with a distorted view of body image of women to get my thyroid checked. Had the audacity to say that I needed to lose weight. Fucking asshole. Didn't even check my bmi, didn't have the nurse use any calipers. Can't believe he said that - I'm the most in shape I've been in ages. I can do 100 push-ups and run a few miles every chance I get. Damn.

And yet he himself is overweight. I could smoke him in a two mile run.

Insensitive, distorted female body image-viewing, old male doctor.

Men are so unrealistic and insensitive. Gotta go to a woman for someone with brains and sensitivity as a human being.

Fucking asshole. Never going there again.

Got home. Couldn't get home soon enough and get the hell away from my parents.

Gotta get out of this house.

Applied to 5 jobs online - all at the same company.

Sent an email to a former temp agency of mine in LA that had some super nice people there. Need to find out what positions they've got available.

Registered on a temp agency website and checked their jobs. Checked emails.

Brushed my teeth. Put some salicylic acid on my face since I have face of a horny teenager. WTF?!! You hear what I just said? I had to put some ACID on my SKIN on my FACE; it's that bad. Using the face wash my dermatologist gave me - it's been 2 weeks so far; hasn't begun working yet. Hopefully it will sooner than later. Sigh. Way to kick a woman while she's down - attack her vanity.

Oh, character-building experiences.

Applied to 4 more jobs, including a part-time position. So unacceptably dim in my room. Need to buy a floor lamp ASAP. So damn dark. My eyes hurting from squinting - in the dark? At my computer screen? Will have to pick up tomorrow along with one last gift. Hopefully get to the mall early, before the crowds, and get out.

OD'd on the rest of the gourmet chocolates. Hello, candy. It's been awhile. Nice to know you still exist.

Total job applications: 9.

Total job rejections: 2.

Total employment email general inquiries sent: 1.

Total new profile creation on a job search website: 1.

Late Monday/Wee Hours of Tuesday.

Applied to 5 full-time jobs online. Applied to 1 part-time job. Made a few other inquiries for postings that piqued my interest, but weren't the cut-and-dry hiring procedural types. Did research for a half dozen other things.

Organized my job website bookmarks.

Couldn't sleep - tossed and turned the whole night. It's now past 6 a.m. Might as well stay up and fight the naps so I can fall asleep tonight and get back to our regularly scheduled programming.

Made To Do List of things for today, plus shopping list of last remaining Christmas items.

Have half a mind to go to DK Diner and try the creamed chipped beef on toast as a reward for being awake during other-normal-people's waking hours.

Getting hungry, that's for sure.

Getting tired of being a gym rat. It's so much work to be healthy as an adult - eat healthy, work out. Every single day. Wish it was a project you could finish and move on with your life sometimes. Can't wait to get out of town. Maybe I just need to get out of the gym. Gets monotonous, as things do.

Today is December 20th. Darkness & cold are here. At least it's the holidays and things are lit up at night, which is night.

So blisteringly cold yesterday, though. That, I could do without. Or maybe because this house is so huge and drafty.

Can't wait to get started on this marketing campaign. Going to do some more research right now. Before I call in my order of creamed chipped beef, that is.

Total job applications for today: 6.

New Job (Kind of) !

Got up around 1:00 p.m. Got in the shower.

Checked emails. Left to grab some coffee and go to the bank. Filled up the tank on the way back.

Went home, checked some more emails. Began checking the job boards. Watched a little TV.

Started researching a few things for the folks. They need to get on board with modern times. I agreed to do their marketing. Starting with a business website, and then moving forward with other marketing plans. It's about time they had a website. Need to show the moms & the pops how to use and administer content on a website, and the use of Twitter and other tools. Not going to create it, going to show them so they know how to maintain it.

Maybe I could get Mom an iPad for Christmas. Or post-Christmas, for after business picks up from the marketing campaign I am going to launch.

So, that's a new part-time job (kind of). Am now covering the marketing for the family business. Am kind of excited - they should have done this a long time ago, except they're old school folks that don't like the computer.

Time to use the college education they paid for and put it to good use, I suppose.

Went to the gym, picked up some groceries, took a shower. Ate dinner. Checked emails, checked the job boards. Applied to a job online. Scoured several other descriptions.

Checked alternative job options ("for now" jobs) online.

Total job applications today: 1

Total job obtained: 1 part-time gig. Most likely will be for the next two months, and may taper off after all is up & running.

This Week's Job, Food, & Spending Round-Up.

Saturday.

Got up at 1:30 p.m. (WTF is going on with my body??!!) Had gotten up at 10:30 a.m. yesterday without a hitch. Couldn't sleep last night.

Ate a banana. Went to the gym. Took a shower. Had some leftover soup/stew bowl.

Took my little cousin out to a movie and grabbed a bite after. I really need to take her out more - have been neglecting my familial duties. She's a cool kid, too, so is a family member I actually like hanging out with. The rest of my family seems to always manage to successfully get on my nerves lately.

Had a garden omelet, ham, some pancakes. Coffee and one BOMB CHERRY PIE 'A LA MODE. Quite possibly the most satisfying meal I've had in ages. Cherry pie was homemade and warmed up. The pancake wasn't the best; but man that was a solid dining fare, as far as diners are concerned.

I remembered. I remembered how much I love to go out and eat good food. Sigh. Los Angeles' restaurant scene. Et cetera.

Applied to a temp job that I saw on craigslist. Yep. Didn't think it would have to come to this.

Total jobs applied to today: 1.

Thoughts of moving back to LA today: a wave of them.

This Week's Round-Up:

Total job applications: 21.

Total job rejections (at least, that I was contacted about): 1.

Total job interviews: 1.

Total breakfasts cooked: Probably 6.

This week's purchases:

one dinner at five guys ($5.51)

+ one latte ($3.45)

+ one dress (on sale! $24.82)

+ one Christmas gift ($40.60)

+ two movie tickets ($22)

+ a late night bite for two ($26.90)

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$123.28 total

Early Saturday.

Never got around to working on my script.

After getting home from the gym, and getting on my computer, started shopping around for things. Like discount movie tickets. (Where have those things gone? I'd buy in bulk, c'mon!)

Then checked some bills online.

And then couldn't stop thinking about food.

Applied to 1 more job - more of a general inquiry, though, since a bunch were posted for the same company.

Started doing trip planning for LA - the eateries.

And then for DC.

But, mainly, just dreaming about food. And got hungry. Checked some local joints. Was expectedly disappointed about the offerings of the suburbs here. Telling myself, if I wake up early enough, I'll reward myself with picking up pancakes from the diner. But - it being 3 am now, not sure how likely that may be.

Downloaded the diner menu and began a 'Menus' folder on my laptop. Ogled the breakfast items. Google Imaged things like creamed chipped beef, Western omelet, Cobb salad. Salivated some more.

Opened up the teaching application. Did not work on it. Need to do that tomorrow.

Job applications: 1.

Friday, December 16th.

Woke up at 10:30 a.m. - a first in a while! And didn't take a nap later on!

Dropped off a modcloth return at my local post office. Picked up a vanilla latte as a reward for getting out of bed while the sun was still up.

Popped some frozen chocolate chip waffles in the toaster.

Checked emails. Did a job boards scan.

Applied to 3 jobs - had to register and fill out the big ole profile for each one, aka big time suck.

Called Boost Mobile again to set up my voicemail. This time, got through the automated bullshit and talked to a real LIVE PERSON who DIDN'T HAVE A THICK, OUTSOURCED HINDI ACCENT. Miraculous.

Had a turkey on kaiser. Was delish.

Went to the mall with the mother to do some returns/exchanges/store credit honoring dropped prices/shopping. Emerged victoriously with a '70s style printed shirtdress with a modern twist.

Got super annoyed with mom multiple times. These things are becoming more commonplace now. Frustrating to hear negative criticism when you're almost 30 years old and on a never-ending record. Drives me nuts. Today she has the balls to bring up something a third grade teacher said TWENTY YEARS AGO about my personality, to use as argument in how her criticism being drawn upon at hand is justified, in an 'I-Told-You-So' way.

Thought crossed my mind that I seriously can't wait to get a job and get out of the house. I miss my independence. Having my own place. My own kitchen. You know, my own LIFE.

For some reason breaking out like a fucking teenager the past few weeks. Probably hormones and stress. Just want it to go away already - I'm not drinking or smoking, I don't eat fast food or other unhealthy options, I've been hitting the gym 5 times a week, I'm unemployed, and I don't have a boyfriend so there is no action of love happening in my life. Can't I at least have decent looking skin?

Came home, noshed on some crackers but the mother insisted on having dinner. Went to the gym and almost puked with all that food sitting in my stomach. Never again.

Took a hot shower. Checked the job boards again. Made plans for tomorrow.

Brainstormed ways of promoting the family business. Getting web marketing ideas. Why did these not occur to me before???

Hosting a friend from out of town. Her neediness is getting a bit irritating. Never knew her to be that needy. She's known for being aggressively independent and selfish at times, and never lacking in assertiveness. But, then again, these are unusual times for both of us. She's been coming off pretty needy and unmotivated the past few weeks. God help us if we're both depressed at the same time while she's visiting.

Started thinking last night about more hot spots for food in LA. Food dreams getting stronger.

Applied to 3 more jobs on Mediabistro. Called it after that.

Was starved around midnight so had an orange and a pb&j on wheat English muffin.

Received 1 job rejection email.

Total jobs applied to: 6.

Total job rejections: 1.

Total purchases while currently unemployed: 1 coffee, 1 dress.

Late Thursday night.

Applied to a job at the shake shack.

Some of the jobs I applied to yesterday am curious to see what response I get back - I am overqualified for them.

I supposed at this point in time, it's good to be curious or expectant about anything. You gotta give yourself some things in life to look forward to.

And God knows I need a few things like that right now.

Am wondering, if I absolutely had to move back to LA and didn't have a job, if I could work at In-N-Out Burger. Would they even hire me? Or anybody, for that matter, with a college degree and six years of professional experience?

I could really go for a burger and some fries right about now.

Or a cupcake. Am thinking about the chocolate tower truffle cake my friends and I had at the cheesecake factory. And the incredible lunch spots near my old neighborhood in LA. Thai food. Kogi tacos. Mexican tacos. Uhhhhh.

Crap. The LA food dreams are back.

Total job applications: 1.

Rainy Thursday.

Got up around 4:00 p.m. with really greasy hair. Is it getting colder during the days now? Hard to get up out of bed. So grey today.

Made some egg whites. Had some yogurt with some cereal thrown in. Why is there no muesli sold at my local ShopRite grocery store? C'mon!

Checked emails. Checked the job boards. Tried fixing the printer. Called India to troubleshoot some more. They were going to charge, so I relied on my own devices and lo and behold, the printer is back in business. Wasn't as lucky with Boost mobile's customer service options - tried to set up voicemail again. Sent an email. Gave up. Went to the gym.

Took a hot shower. Watched some TV.

Called a couple friends.

Applied to 6 jobs online. 3 of them are for 'just-for-now' kinds of jobs. The other 3 are for my career.

Checked the weather. Fighting a headache.

My glasses start giving me a headache.

Total jobs applied to: 6.

Wednesday, December 14th.

Woke up at 2:00 p.m. Super cloudy and chilly. Was hard to get up today.

Made a pot of coffee. Had a turkey sandwich. The sandwich was really good today. Roasted turkey on a kaiser roll, with lettuce, tomato, pickles, and mayo. A handful of Kettle brand Sour Cream and Onion chips. Bomb lunch. I declare this will be sufficient to be my usual lunch for the next couple of weeks.

Got the coat I ordered from Modcloth. Way too tight and baggy in the wrong places and completely unflattering. Will have to ship a return tomorrow.

Went to the Exton square mall with Mom and shopped all evening. Had a hamburger from Five Guys - first ever. Pretty good. Didn't realize the textbook hamburger was a double burger. With lettuce, tomato, grilled onions, ketchup. Fought back the urge to buy fries.

Also, the food court at the Exton Square Mall sucks. There is no sit-down joint - just food court fare. No decent pizza. A casual cafe would be nice. There's no sushi spot. No Carl's Jr. No Thai food, no decent Mexican food (but, of course, this is the suburban northeast). Sigh. I miss the authentic tacos of LA. The flavorful spiciness of Thai food. A hot bowl of pho noodles. A big slice of NY pizza. The dessert options and latte art of Urth Caffe.

Forgot how good a burger could be. Can't remember the last time I had one. Did I go to In-N-Out burger the last time I was in LA? Hmm. No, wait. I did have a burger back in LA. It was on a spur of the moment run - a McDonald's drive-thru. I ordered a hamburger happy meal. Yep. September. How sad - that was the last time I had a burger - and it was not premeditated. Will have to do it right and hit In-N-Out or Umami the next time.

Ended up getting a strawberry banana smoothie for dessert. Go health.

Went home. Made a hot cup of green tea. Ate a sugar cookie. Checked a few job boards. Answered some emails. Watched TV online. Applied to 4 jobs.

For belated dinner/midnight snack/my new dinnertime had some smoked salmon on a whole wheat English muffin.

Can't wait to get out of town over New Year's.

Mom is making her herbal tea, which sits on the island in the kitchen in a crock pot and boils for ten hours and stinks up the entire house. I am upstairs in my room, with the door closed. I can smell it from here. She gets it from somebody who gets it shipped from Korea. From what I can tell, it most closely resembles prunes and handfuls of grassy dirt thrown into a pot of boiling water. So, prune-dirt tea.

Need to get my thyroid checked. Have been breaking out, and the derma doc says it could be hormonal and I should get a blood test from an ob/gyn to check out my thyroid. Want to get it over with already. Need to make an appointment. But it's a blood test, so I'm imagining just popping into the office, having any nurse draw my blood sample, and I leave, and they call me with the results a couple days later. Need to go find an ob/gyn or thyroid doc.

Weird. My body is out of sync these days. I think I need more sunlight. Winter months are a big bummer to the immune system, anyway.

Total jobs applied to today: 4.

Tuesday.

Woke up.

Made some scrambled egg whites with a toasted slice of English muffin.

Went to the gym.

Ate dinner.

Checked a couple job boards; nothing new of interest.

Can't remember what else I did today.

Applied to: 0 jobs today.

Monday's update.

Applied to 8 jobs today.

Had one phone interview for a teaching job abroad.

Sunday.

Happy about the two pairs of heels I got yesterday.

One pair of perforated yellow patent leather, pointy-toed heels. One pair of black lace-covered satin, peep-toed stilettos.

And my feet fit into both of them.

Woke up around 1:30 p.m. Went back to sleep and woke up for real at 2 p.m. Got up, made egg whites. Put on a pot of coffee. Watched some TV. Did the dishes. Cleaned my room.

Called my friend whom I'm hosting over Christmas. Talked jobs, life, her upcoming trip. Made plans for our time in DC.

Called my friend with whom I'm going to Napa over New Year's. Mainly talked mba experience. Debating grad school. Et cetera. Went to the fabric store and bought interfacing. Went to the bookstore and worked on my laptop for a bit, edited my feature screenplay. Ate an oatmeal cookie.

Did a quick check of the job boards.

Went home, cooked dinner. Watched Once Upon A Time. Did the dishes. Watched Stand By Me. Added the interfacing to a handbag. Stitched the lining shut. Sewed the adjustable strap on one of my bras. Tried it on. Fit like a glove.

Checked emails. Watched some Hulu. Wrote two emails to follow up regarding jobs I had applied for.

Pulled out my grey jeans. Need to hem it. Maybe tomorrow.

Tomorrow I have a job interview for a teaching position in South Korea. Not as jazzed as you might think.

Praying for direction. Trying not to get depressed.

Saturday.

Woke up at 1:27 p.m.

Grabbed a bite. Got dressed.

Went shopping with the mother. Ended up going all evening. Bought two pairs of heels for less than fifty bucks (score!), a hooded jacket, one long-sleeved tee, one wool hat, one cable sweater. Three Christmas gifts. Not too bad.

Got home. Freezing cold tonight.

Checked some job boards. Brainstormed alternative, I'm-in-between-professional-jobs jobs.

Friday, December 9th.

Woke up at 2:15 p.m. Couldn't sleep last night.

Got up, got dressed. Freezing cold today. Whipped up some sunny side-up eggs.

Scoured job boards. Shopped online. Bought a tweed jacket.

Did laundry.

Applied to 4 jobs.

Canceled my facebook account a couple days ago. Feeling relieved to not have the time suck. Still plenty of things that serve that purpose.

Thought about going to the gym. Passed. Still sore from yesterday.

Worked on editing 10 pages of script. am now at 50 pages of edits done.

4:23 a.m. Going to bed. Setting alarm for 9:30 a.m.

Thursday Recap.

Rolled out around at 1:15 p.m.

Went to doc's appointment since my face is breaking out like a teenager.

Had coffee on near-empty stomach.

Returned a jacket.

Worked on my laptop for a couple of hours at barnes & noble. Mainly scoured job boards, finished drafting and sent off a few emails.

Ate a turkey sandwich. Watched TV online. Plucked my eyebrows.

Went to the gym.

Ate dinner. Watched Grimm.

Freezing cold today.

Shopped for a tweed jacket online. There really aren't that many fashionable, flattering, feminine, warm tweed jackets for women. Somebody better get on that. That market in the fashion world is wide open.

Scoured job boards some more. Stomach is feeling bothered. Gotta remember not to have coffee until I've eaten something first.

Jobs applied to today: 6.

Job rejection emails received: 1.

Hump Day.

Woke up at 4 or 5pm. Must've slept for about 12 hours.

Ate a grilled cheese sandwich.

Checked emails. Went to the gym. Didn't realize how late it was, stayed until it closed at 10 p.m.

Was pouring rain outside. Cold, too.

Came home, had a late dinner of noodle soup and threw in some fresh lime and cilantro.

Watched TV. More emails.

Checked one job board.

Did not work on my novel today. Did not work on my feature script.

2:21 a.m. Hopefully will be able to fall asleep.

Late Tuesday/Early Wednesday.

Slept in 4 hour increments. Again.

Applied to no jobs today.

Received 1 job rejection email.

Received 1 "you're-under-consideration-for-this-job-that-you-applied-for" email.

Yesterday (Tuesday) - tried on my Zappos. Returned all my Zappos. Picked up ink cartridge. Went to the fabric store. Bought a plaid shirt. Blue and cute as heck.

Went home. Ate a tuna sandwich. Proceeded to take a deep-sleeping, serious REM-filled 4 hour nap. Woke up. Ate dinner. Worked out. Went home. Checked emails. Watched TV online. Shopped online.

Opened up my feature script and started editing.

Did not work on my novel today.

New week.

It's December. Crap.

Triple crap.

Applied to 1 job yesterday.

Really need to focus this week. Running errands is such a time suck. Just like job hunting.

This week, I need to have a more disciplined writing regimen.

And, start giving grad school some more serious thought. As well as moving to nyc. Or back to LA. Or working abroad.

Heating up chicken fingers at 5:00 a.m. Woke up at 4 a.m. and couldn't go back to sleep. And then got hungry. So now I'm sleeping in erratic, uncontrollable fashion. Slept in 4-hour increments in the past 24 hours. Slept for 10+ hours once last weekend. Starting to reintroduce natural sunlight, or at least daylight hours, into my life. That is, when my body manages to crawl its ass out of bed during relevant times.

Life is difficult to begin when you're all warm and cozy in bed. Winter can suck.

Got 1 job rejection email today.

New things.

Sick of cold weather. Today seems like a good day to move to Mexico.

So sick of job hunting. Looking forward to getting out of town over new year's. Wonder how the weather will be in napa. Also, nothing planned yet for the actual eve of the new year. Hopefully will happen upon something fun. With attractive, single gentlemen.

Went shopping for a couple hours with the mom. We both came up with no goods to show for our efforts.

Got crafty and had a mini vintage jewelry making sesh. I'm kind of awesome.

Applied to 1 job today.

Friday, December 2nd. The Day The Sun Appeared.

At least, for more than a few minutes. Because I was awake for it this time.

To be honest, though, the sun hasn't been making much of an effort lately.

Went to UPS to return my Zappos shoes.

Went to DSW but couldn't find any shoes for my thick, wide, monstrosity feet.

Bought a cup of coffee and stopped for gas.

Downloaded some Ludacris songs.

Checked the job boards. Not much new bait to bite on. Forget the good-looking ones for today.

Ate a banana.

Looking forward to escaping to Napa over New Year's. Thank you, frequent flyer miles.

Applied to 1 job today.

Received 1 job rejection email.

Wednesday, November 30th Update.

30,433 words of my novel.

Applied to 3 jobs today.

Job rejection emails received: 2.